THE NEW TUTION IN ERA..

Frankly.. it was really a massive DISASTER!!!!

i thought i was late to tuition.. but i didn't know that there was people who was later than me.. INCLUDING the teacher!!

i rushed back home frm Kajang jz to bring my bag and pencil case. The moment when i reached the tuition centre.. i went to registered myself at the counter. I filled in my name and all those information on the registeration form.

Here comes the shocking scene i've ever seen in a tuition centre!!! i stepped into the class.. it was damn NOISY!!! that was the first difference that i found as compared to SUCCESS tuition centre! and it was the MAJOR difference!!!

Never mind.. it's kinda normal to me. It's just the same thing usually happened in school.. so i wasn't really CARE.. Ateli3r was not there yet. She sent me a msg but my hp wasn't with me that time.. it was at home. WH lend me his seat and he went out to take another chair for himself. And that Bryan teased me, he told me that i grew taller already!! F***!!!! of course la!! i was wearing a pair of high heel shoes!!! Yeah.. very FUNNY -.-"

I chat with Anandh and YF. I didn't know that i could reallt talk to YF like a friend.. i don't talk to him in school. We were like strangers.. Nicole was late.. T_T i really thought that i could sit with her.. but there was a guy at my left hand side.. i was kinda stucked at the middle.. and i didn't wanna move around so i terpaksa have to..

SORRY.. ATELI3R..

When the teacher came in.. he didn't noticed that ther's a new student.. ok FINE.. but i NOTICED another thing.. thse guys at the back had NEVER stop TALKING even the teacher was there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was kinda.. kinda.. (don't know hw to expree my feelings bout it!!!).. they disrespect the teacher.. they ALWAYS tends to interrupt the teacher during the lesson!! and i HATE it so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

How am i goin to concentrate when there is noise EVERYWHERE!!! YF and Bryan were also not focussing during the lesson.. they bully Danny by taking his shoe off and hide it..

And the teacher's voice was freaking LOUD!!!! but it's alright for me.. the louder he speaks, the more i could pay attention!! Coz those BASTARD at the back were really FREAKING ME OUT!!!!

WENT OUT OF TOPIC!!

16 August 2008

The Damansara Utama Methodist Centre (DUMC) tuition had cancelled! That morning, i gave a phone call to Mr. Peter. Oh GOD!!! his voice sounds manly!! i LIKE it!!

WHAT AM I THINKING?!! HE'S MY TEACHER!!!!

Oh.. jz forget bout it!! ENOUGH means ENOUGH!!!

Later on.. my family and i went to Kajang for prayers. It's the 1st year anniversary of my grandfather's death.. He passed away peacefully.. He sat on the floor, he leaned on the wall behind his back.. My grandfather had diabetes since he was early 30 year old.. He had went through all these misfortune and sufferings for the rest of his life.. i've see him injecting himself with some kind of whitish concentrated liqiud on his thigh.. i didn't dare to ask him what was it..

Everytime he drink tea or coffee.. he added a few artificial sugar into it.. i still remember the brand of the artificial sugar.. it's EQUAL.. Yeah!! i've learned this product in Chemistry.

But until now.. i still feel the guiltiness deep inside my heart.. i couldn't forgive myself.. For chinese lunar calendar, my grandfather died on 16 July 2007. It was during the hungry ghost festival. I MISS HIM SO SO SO MUCH!! i could even cry when i start talk bout my grandfather!! however.. it seems like he just passed away not long ago..

On the day when my grandfather died, i was on the phone call with Howe2!! we talked quite long actually.. that was the time my mum called me to inform me bout my grandfather's death!!! but she didn't get to reach me as the phone was engaging!!! How STUBBORN i am to have miss my mum's phone call?!!!

I guess my mum got frustrated, so she and my dad rushed back home to tell me the news.. The moment i saw they opened the auto-gate outside.. i quickly hang up the phone call with Howe2!!! i went to open the door. i saw my mum was crying.. and my dad had a very numb look on his face..i can sense that there's is something wrong..

The first thing that my father tell me is.. "Grandfather has died.." and my mum was so angry and questioned me bout why i didn't pick up the phone!!! I lied to her that i was having a phone call with my friend.. The moment when my father told me bout the news.. i was SPEECHLESS!! my brain was totally blank!! i didn't know what response to give them..

i went into the car.. all of us was so quiet.. it took us bout 30 minutes to reach my grandfather's house.. and when i reached there.. i saw my aunties.. my uncles.. everyone was crying.. the atmosphere there was really lifeless.. i walked upstairs.. i reached the door of my grandfather's room.. he was there.. with no expression on his face anymore.. his body turned white.. my grandmothers' eyes were red and swollen..

i cried soundlessly.. i couldn't stop my tears from falling.. i couldn't stop starring at my grandfather.. i couldn't take it!! i couldn't accept the fact of his death!! as i was pondering why the incident happened so sudden, my father came near me and tried to ease me.. he told me to calm down..

On the same night.. i couldn't sleep AT ALL!! i lied down on my bed.. all the memories of my grandfather kept passing through my mind.. i played the song from Celine Dion. And i cried for the whole night..

On the funeral ceremony.. we walked along the road with our bare legs.. it was a tradition. Not that we are superstitious.. but we BELIEVE.. we ALL believe!! and i accidentlly stepped on a burning cigarette on the ground!! SHIT!!! don't know which bastard go and throw it on the floor!!! And things went successfully.. we thanked that it wasn't rain that day..

I LOVE YOU, GRANDPA!!

A fight with a teacher..

usually in school.. ppl can hardly see me fighting with the teachers.. and i seldom do that too! Frankly, i'm afraid of teachers sometimes.. but certain teachers really make me wanna bit them up nicely!!!

it was jz Monday, 11 August 2008.

it was the last lesson for the day, English. I don't mind telling her name.. jz wanna let the whole world knw that she's such a"F" BITCH!! I don't knw hw she got a bf.. but Thank God, she's not married YET!!! then i can make ppl jeer at her!! AHAHAHAHA!!!!

CIK SUJATHA!! YOU'RE A BLOODY BIG "S" WOMAN IN THE WHOLE UNIVERSE!!!

She can shout at us in front of all the teachers in the stuff room.. she can scream at us like a mad fool!! she can do whatever she like!! BUT SHE CAN'T CONTROL US!!

it was jz a small matter and she made it as if we were breaking the school rules!! MOTHER FISH!! Two of my friends (jz to accompany me) and me went to hand in my club's file to the teacher in-charged. It's URGENT! since Cik Sujatha was still in the stuff room.. so we tried to make things fast. We were actually wanted to put the files on top of the teacher's table.. and she shouted at us!!

"WHY ARE THREE OF YOU OVER HERE?! I THOUGHT WE ARE SUPPOSED TO HAVE ENGLISH CLASS AFTERWARD.. GO BACK TO THE CLASS NOW!!"

i explained to her politely that i just wanna leave the files on top of the teacher's table, then we will go back to our class. but she didn't wanna listem!!!

"I DON'T CARE!! I SAID GO BACK TO THE CLASS NOW!!"

So three of us went back to the class and sat down. we were REALLY pissed off at that moment!! it wasn't our fault!! and the FIRE started burning on our head.. we decided to enter the stuff room AGAIN, and this time we won't care what she said, we'll just do whatever we wanna do!!

Once again.. she saw us. She was kinda angry already. Coz she gave us warning to stay in the class and wait for her to enter the class. But we ignored her. We didn't bothered what she said!! And she started to shout at us again..

"I SAID GO BACK TO THE CLASS NOW!!"

and she wanted to slap Ateli3r!! God!! we went back into the class, and i got pissed off too!! hw dare she talked to us like that!! Since she didn't even respect her students, so why do we have to respect her?!! she humiliated us in front of all the teachers in the stuff room..

BUT SHE HUMILIATED HERSELF TOO!!

it shows that she's not POWERFUL enough to control her students!!

SHE'S POWERLESS!!!!

She made the students hate her.. all of us is going to take revenge!! YES I WILL!!!

remembered she said my literature exercise book was RUBBISH!!!!

i'm gonna splash the red NIPPON paint all over her house!! i'm gonna screw up her wedding dress (if i could)!!! i'm gonna cut off her long hair!! DESTROY her car!! pour sodium hydroxide, NaOH all over her face (is it corrosive enough??) !!! or maybe i should use hydrochloric acid, HCL solution?? O_o WHATEVER!!!

i am HUNTING for you, Cik Sujatha.. where r u?






*i knw this is a bit evil.. but.. i dunno.. jz to release my anger..

PLKN !!!!!

what the "f"!!

y am i so unlucky nowadays?!!!

i got picked for the National Service!! i've never thought of it before until i received that "f" msg!!

PLKNSEMAKIC NUMBER SEND TO 15888

"double UU" asked me whether i want him to check for me.. but i refused. Hey! i was really concentrating in the class.. what if i got picked?? my mood will really really change immediately!! No one was paying attention during the lesson.. they were really focusing on their cell phone and eagerly waiting for the arrival of the msg..

"tahniah! anda telah dipilih... Programme Latihan Khidmat Negara.. 6/2009.."

Not that i'm being such a coward.. i'm jz anxious.. one of the advantages is that i'm able to gain more experience through the programme.. i can make more friends there.. but i won't forget my frenz in school no matter how!!! I'm able to get out of my house and search for my FREEDOM!!

BUT.. it's about the hygiene there!! and the food they provided!! i'm really afraid of it.. i didn't wanna eat those dirty food there!! i want CLEAN and FRESH food!!! i really don't wanna stay in the hospital during the programme!! i REALLY don't want!! i SWEAR!!

y pick ME?!! y not the others?!! it's so UNFAIR!! My friends said that i'm like "WATER".. what does it mean actually?? my guts are telling that i've being too SOFT.. AM I?? T_T

i really can't stand this anymore.. i couldn't sleep last night.. i kept thinking about the programme.. WHERE WILL THEY SEND ME TO??

SABAH??

or

SARAWAK??

i heard Danisa said most of the Selangor citizen will be send to Kelantan!!! NO!!!!!

and it seems like a GOOD news for the guys.. yeah!! they get to hold a gun.. what so interesting?? Even i hold a GUN before!! i mean.. the FAKE one.. the gun TOY.. hehe! so lame..

and i heard there's a lot of gangster inside.. but i'm not really scared of these ppl.. if they wanna fight, FIGHT la!!!! i bet i'm gonna win..

*this topic is a lil bit sensitive.

You know why God created gap between fingers??

So that at someday, sometime, somehow, the ONE who is made foryou, finally will come and fill all the gaps by holding your hands FOREVER..

Sweet Sweet Memories between ME & HIM..

Mon, 4 August 2008

At night.. i took out my calendars in the year 2007 & 2008.. Not to check the date.. but to recount back all the events happened throughtout these years.. My calendar is half of my diary.. Last time, i did write my own diary in a note book. But my mum eventually read the contents WITHOUT my permission! It was very RUDE!!

i HATE it when people touch my stuffs in my room!! USELESS PEOPLE!!

Yeah.. i found out that my bf (HH) had been to my hs for 9 times!! WTF!! I didn't knw it was that much!! Plus the another two times that i ponteng school, TOTAL is 11 times!! WOW!!

The first time we met was in IOI Mall. I played truant jz to date with him.. I gave him a kiss on the cheek when we reached the car park.. We went inside but both of us didn't knw where to go.. so we jz walked around.. here and there.. i remembered he knocked my head when i did something stupid!! Haha!

We sat on a bench.. i leaned on his shoulder.. it was the first time i hold a guy's hand.. he hugged me tightly.. all the people passed by looked at us in a different angle.. WHO CARES!! we were in LOVE at that moment!! Then, we head on to the POPULAR book shop.. Suddenly, he brought me to the staircase beside the book shop!! i was really PANIC!! i had no idea what is he going to do!! SHIT!!! but i knw something wasn't right..

He brought me downstairs.. the place what so quiet.. no one was there.. my heartbeat was damn FAST!! In no time, he pushed me towards the wall.. He stared me with an EVIL kind of look!! I knw he's gonna do something to me!! YES!! he kissed me.. my lips.. our body was so close.. i've never had that kind of body contact with a guy!! we were so intimate.. we were drowning in the mood..

However, i didn't really like it! i expected my first kiss to be in a very slow, long and a deep kiss. But end up we kissed in a very wild way!! at first, i didn't knw hw to kiss, so i was so kayu at times.. but Thank God i got used to it.. I didn't wanna spoil the atmosphere..

Later on, i think he got HIGH!! SHIT!! he brought me to somewhere else.. GUESS WHERE!! in the BOMBA ROOM!!! it was only a little space in the room.. so we gotta squeeze inside.. he was such a NAUGHTY boy!! And..

TO BE CONTINUE..

Argh!! he TOUCHED my hand!!!

OMG!! i can't believe what happened 2day!! he was the first person that i admired in this school since i entered secondary school. he is the most handsome guy in the school! i didn't wanna reveal the identity coz he might have a blog too!

But jz because we are in Form 5 nw, so all the prefects had to step down and retire.. hehe! During Chemistry lesson, we had to do an experiment on Chapter 5 , which is about the making of soap. I've jz learned this topic yesterday during tuition. Not a DIFFICULT topic, but it's not EASY too!

First of all, we measured the amount of NaOH needed by using the measuring cylinder. Next, we put a lil bit palm oil into the beaker. Mixed both the material by pouring the NaOH into the beaker. The smell of the palm oil was really SUCKS!! And then, we boiled it for 10 minutes. After that, we added in 3 spatulas of sodium chloride, NaCl, which is the common salt and also some distilled water. Let them boil for another 5 minutes. Keep stirring the mixture..

Then, we filtered the boiled solution by using a filter paper. The product that formed on the filter paper is the SOAP. However, when i feel it with my fingers, i didn't feel slippery at all!! I felt OILY! Eeeee.. DISGUSTING!!

At the end of the experiment, i used the basin that is located at "his" table. I washed the apparatus and cleaned them. Suddenly he came and wash his hands.. You knw what he did next?? Oh GOD!! he jz grabbed my hand! I was frightened so i took my hand away, unfortunately, i split the wayers on hand to SMing's book!

What the hell?! her reaction was too big!! What a BITCH!! It was jz a petty2 things that she made it as i destroyed her book!! I didn't apologise to her coz it's not my property!! i could have scratch all over her book and tear them into pieces!! SO WHAT?!

Back to the topic.. hehe! yeah.. i was a lil bit overwhelmed!! I shouldn'e have take away my hand and see what he'll do to my hand.. Hold it?? OH NO!! what am i thinking?!! STOP IT!! But it feels kinda good..

I wish i have a time machine and reverse the time when he touches my hand.. haha!