AFFAIR

oh shit!!!

i coupled with the same guy again!! Let's jz name him as J. Goodness!! it doesn't feels so good..

it was jz last night.. i cried for him when i asked him bout his ex gf.. i'm such an idiot!! This is reli a LOVE TRIANGLE!!

1. Howe Howe



2. "DOUBLE UU" ??



3. J
   

Between 3 of them above.. Howe Howe is the most loyal guy i've ever met. But hw sure am i?? maybe one day he MIGHT betray me.. i don't know.. it's all in God'd hand. But nothing is impossible, right??

Now what?? Haiz.. i'm so not STABLE enough when it comes to relationship!! i mean RELATIONSHIPS!! he tried so hard to get me back.. but i'm TOO soft-hearted (my major weakness!).. i accepted him eventually.. i jz met him twice.. we kissed and we almost did something that we shouldn't do!! well, i'm good in controlling my desire!!

And he looks so mature, bt his actual age is jz 23!! i got cheated by his real age.. he lied to me!!

i couldn't help myself.. his ex gf is same age as mine!! F***!!! which means.. he coupled with that girl when she was jz 13!! oh DAMN!! i'm the SECOND!! Argh!! i would rather kill myself!! i can't believe that's the fact!!!

i wanna be his FIRST!!! i'm so obsessed to HIM!! however, he doesn't deserve my tears!! NOT AT ALL!! NEVER!! not even a single drop of it!!

hw can he treat me like this?? the radio was playing James Blunt and it makes me feel so down.. a lot of my frenz are telling me to dump him but.. am i able to d it?? that's another question!! i'm not sure bout my feelings..

he made me suffered.. he's mentally torturing me..

J flirts with lots of girls.. after our first broke-up, he added lots of girl in friendster.. i don't knw what's wrong with him, but it's difficult to guess what's on his mind.. his attitude seems like the climate.. sometimes HOT ; sometimes COOL ..

I still remembered the first time we met.. i smoked!! i took one of his cigarette and tried to suck a lil bit.. WOW!! i chocked!! i hated the smell of it.. but i was nearly addicted to it.. maybe coz of the nicotine -.-"

i LOVE his kisses!! i love it MORE than Howe Howe's kiss!! Howe Howe's kiss is erotic and wild (HOT!!!) ; but J's kiss is soft and slow.. MAKES ME HIGH!!! "High" in the sense of... sense of... hmm... SECRET!!! haha! can't tell.. PRIVATE!!

He wanted to take my nude picture (isolated part - vulva) !! but i refused!! NO!! he's such a pervert!! i'm afraid that my face might turn up in YouTube.. Goss!!

Though it HURTS!! he's not HUMOUR at all.. NO jokes.. being with him is not romantic at all.. i celebrated his birthday this year.. i didn't get to buy him a present.. he wanted to bring me to a HOTEL!! but.. i'm not sure whether he is able to celebrate my birthday with me this year.. we' see hw far we can go.. if our relationship last, then it's a good thing.. but if can't, then i'm speechless (NO COMMENT..)

i wonder how the ending will be.. will we be enemies?? no matter how.. i don't really care bout the ending, i only care bout the process.. i don't mind if i give my virginity to him, honetly.. the problem is, AM I STILL A VIRGIN???

in school, there's lots of rumors bout me behave in front of the guys.. some said i'm a prostitute!! some siad i always fool around with the guys!! i don't care hw ppl look at me.. you CAN humiliate me! you CAN embarrass me!! you CAN do whatever thing that you like to do!! it's NONE of my business!!

J.. the game is NOT over yet.. if you wanna play a fool in my feelings.. jz GO AHEAD!! this is where the game begins..

I'LL BE YOUR BEST PLAYER!!!

Things Not To Say During Sex !!

Guys!! pay attention here!!

• i have to poop.


• smile for the camera! Cheese..


• Get off me, i'll do it myself..


• This is your first time, right?


• You're almost as good as my ex!


• When is this supposed to feel good?


• i thought you had the key to the handcuffs?!


• i was so horny tonight, i would have taken a sheep home.


• keep it down, my mother is a light sleeper!


• Hey! my friends were right! You ARE good in this!


• I'm sobering up and you're getting ugly..


• on second thought, let's turn the lights off.


• But everybody looks funny naked..


• do i have to pay for this?


• No! you are too fat to be on top. You'd kill me!!


• Actually.. your sister 'likes' it like this..


• What's your name again?


• Hold on, let me change the channel..


• It's nice being in bed with someone i don't have to inflate..


• uhh.. i think the condom broke 10 minutes ago..

HAHAHA!!!

My LOVE quote

Good kissers are strong men who will have your back.

Bad kissers are weak men who will just like to grab your butt..

Watch out, LADIES!!

When you..

When you try your best, but you don't succeed..

When you get what you want, but not what you need..

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep..

When you lose something, but you can't replace it..

When you set your goal, but you can't achieve..

When you feel frustrated, but you can't release..

When you promised something, but you can't fulfil it..

When you break something, but you can't fix it..

When you want to fly, but you are without wings..

When you see a star, but you can't make a wish..

When you're in love with him, but you can't meet him..

When you scream out loud, butone cares about it..

Could it be worse??



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MY INTRO..

My world reposed in the dusk,
And my mind reposed in the past,
I went nearly mad with grief,
when the day you left me.

I sank under the heavy burden of hardship,
VIRTUE and VICE are before me,
There are too much!!!
Torturing me..

The one leads to misery;
The other leads to happiness..
Wishing i could do something blindfold

What's going on????

HELL IS A PLACE CALLED HOME..

A poem for YOU

I love you
fo so many reasons
large or small,
and all of them are wonderful..

I love you for all te special qualities
that makes you"you",
one of a kind,
the only one in the world of me.

I love you
for the things you say that
bring such special meaning
to my life.

I love you
for the silent times when
your eyes and your arms
tell me all i want to know..

I love you
because you know how
to bring out the BEST inme..

I love you
just because i do..
Because now,
in a place where
there was nothing before,
in the deepest part of my HEART..

There is LOVE..

Your (my) LOVE is Base on Passion

When you're in love, youe brimming with emotions and desire.

For you, love can be crazy frenzy - but somehow it al makes sense.

Love is the most important thing to you. You are capable of doing anything for LOVE.
( This makes you very lovable.. but also a little SCARY! )

Why your love can LAST:
You've got the tre attraction, bnd, and euphoria to make it happened.

Why your love can FAIL:
Love isn't something you really think through. Your roller coaster relationship sometimes end on a terrifying note.