UNTITLED

it's been a long time i've not go online..

i miss my blog..

my blog seems like everything to me now..

why can't blog be human being..??

i wanna hug my blog..

i'm so down..

knowing that everybody is leaving me one-by-one..

Firstly.. is PB..

Secondly.. is Derek..

Thirdly.. Some random guy that we've not met before.. (??)

There's whole lot more..

Those guys that i flirt with... they are UNCOUNTABLE..

Max..

Irvin..

Eason..

Today is 26 September..

I called PB..

Very obvious that we are so awkward to talk to each other..

He was going for a trip to KL.. with.. his gf..

I didn't know about it at first..

But when i heardd a sound of a girl talking to him..

I started to suspect..
I asked him.. "is she your friend?"

He was like.. "erm.. ya.."

What does that mean??

He sounded so weird..

I was thinking that maybe he's lying..

So i asked him again..

FINALLY.. he admitted..

But why??

it's just a small matter..

Why can't he just tell me the truth..

Am i his REAL friend or.. maybe i'm just some RANDOM web friend for him..?? i mean.. not that i wanna bother his love life.. i'm happy that he found his true love.. and i'm so envious..

i admit that i was EXTREMELY shocked at that moment.. it wasn't what i expected..

maybe i'm just too obsessed to.. HIM?? i don't know.. AND I DON'T WANNA KNOW!!!!

All the guys that i've met.. they seems like treating me the same way like i treat those other guys last time..

I really don't know what to say anymore..