~酒~

酒..是快乐的泉源, 或是痛苦的根源? 酒带给人的是快乐还是痛苦?

人为什么会喝酒? 喜欢麻痹的感觉, 还是喜欢幻想的感觉? 难道喜欢它苦涩的味道?

酒好难喝..一点也不好喝…为什么人还是选择喝酒?

夜夜狂欢,让酒精麻醉自己, 把自己陷入底潮, 伤心的大声哭泣, 是种发泄空虚的方法吗?酒后清醒, 你会发现酒精根本於是无补 . 酒入愁肠愁更愁.这句明句, 很经典.简单地带出酒后的心情.喝酒是你可能因酒精发作, 觉得兴奋, 突然脑筋一转, 想起了一些不愉快的事, 心情直落谷底.

分手后去喝酒是最笨的事. 伤心的灵魂, 早就不见了二魂七魄, 酒精入肚, 不堪设想. 你可能会打电话给你的前男友或前女友, 乱七八糟的说一些不该说的话, 让彼此的关系更加恶化, 不能挽回.

更糟糕的恐怕是酒后乱性, 因为空虚寂寞, 一时意乱情迷, 糊乱与人发生关系. 可能为了生理需求, 可能为了寻找人与人之间的温度, 也可能为了证明自己还是有魅力的, 可能..种种的可能都会发生在不清醒的人身上..一觉醒来, 发现身边的人不是自己所爱的, 后悔也来不及了..这份后悔会伴你一生..

既然如此, 为什么有人还是爱它呢??

~爱情~

午后，慵懒的阳光洒落地面，纵长路上，男孩骑车载 女孩问….. 你会爱我多久？

女孩紧抱着男孩，侧着头在他耳边这样甜甜的问， 她知道，这个问题没有100分的答案。带着娇嗔的轻笑， 她说：「给你一个说甜言蜜语的机会。

男孩却认真的思考了起来。 趁着红灯停止的机会，他举起手比了个“一”要女孩 猜他的答案是什麽。

女孩想了一想，快乐的说：「一辈子！」

男孩笑了，并不是因为她答对，而是感染了她的喜悦 绿灯了，男孩不仅趋车面对现实，也收敛起笑容，轻轻的告诉女孩： 「我不会给这种答案的，这样的答案好到不真实了， 在说谎..再猜猜..

女孩对男孩的说法很满意，於是歪者头继续想.. 一天？

呵呵，我们已经相恋两个月了， 一天、一星期、一个月这些都不成立喔！

又是红灯，男孩握住女孩的手，微笑的看着她, 女孩窃笑，大声的说「不会是一瞬间吧？」这个答案 男孩差点笑倒在马路上 [当然不是啦！]

他一直深爱着女孩的幽默，深爱着女孩爽朗的笑容， 这个答案让他更紧握住女孩的手….

「一年吗？」曾经有过一年时间等待的承诺，使得女孩对一年这个答案特别敏感。

男孩摇摇头， 他们之间已经不需要等待，只剩时间的考验……. 「一百年好了，爱我一百年就够了。」

女孩说着，并表现着幸福的模样。

男孩说「一百年太短了吧，不够我爱你啊！」

甜言蜜语是男孩的专长，爱听甜言蜜语却是女孩的弱 …. 女孩笑了，轻铃的笑声让男孩闯了红灯…

"想要听答案了吗?"

男孩想说了， 而女孩想听「我会爱你多久呢？」

男孩手比着一说：

"一…一直到你不再爱我我的那一天…"

YOU!!! READ THIS!!!!

FUH!!!

THIS TIME I'M GONNA WRITE MY BLOG IN BOLD ALPHABETS!!

YES!! I CUT MY HAIR!!

I'M PROUD TO SAY THIS!!! THOUGH I KNOW THIS IS NOT A BIG THING TO ANNOUNCE!!

I'M CUTTING DOWN ALL MY MEMORIES WITH HIM!!!!

THEY ARE NO LONGER EXIST IN MY MIND!!!

NOT EVEN IN MY FUCKING BRAIN ANYMORE!!!

I'M HAPPY WITH MY NEW LOOK NOW!!

I'M GONNA LIVE MY FUTURE DAYS WITH MY NEW IMAGE!!

I'M BRAND NEW!!!!

DEREK ASKED WHETHER HE WOULD HAVE THE CHANCE AGAIN..

HELL "NO" !!!!!

EASON IS ALSO ANOTHER SEX-MINDED GUY.. THAT I DON'T EVEN WANNA BOTHER HIM.. I'M JUST FOOLING AROUND WITH HIM... HEH!!! IDIOT!!

I AM NOT LIKE LAST TIME ANYMORE!!!!

"IF YOU WANNA PLAY, I PLAY TOO!!" AND THAT'S MY PRINCIPLE!!!

It's OVER..

This is the second blog that i posted today..

I'm just recounting the things that happened few days ago..

it was 21st September (Saturday), my bf called early in the morning.. i was still sleeping..
But still, i answered his call.. He didn't even wish me Good Morning..

Suddenly he popped out a question to me!!

"Hve you been telling others about our stuffs??" Jacky asked.

At first, i didn't get what he was trying to say.. Coz i'm a bit blurr.. just got up from my bed..

Recently, i met a guy named Eason. I got no idea on hw he got my number.. everytime i asked him bout that, he didn't wanna tell!! So i didn't really bothered.. maybe some of my guy friends gave the number to him.. Honestly.. Eason and i were just friends!!

I thought he was just some random guy who likes to flirts with girls.. He proposed to me. But the weird thing was.. he knew how i looked like!! How come?? i didn't even show him my picture!!

But i didn't tell anyone bout Eason, except my frineds!! But hw does my bf, Jacky, know that i've been smsing other guys?? When i asked Jacky bout tha, he didn't wanna tell!! All he said was just.. "Do not contact that guy anymore, do you hear me?!"

but i said.. "it's not wrong to make new friends?!"

Soon.. i hung up the call..

And then he didn't talk to me already..
I thought he was just being jealous or whatsoever!!
So i didn't really care bout him although he didn't wanna talk to me.. I knew that he's angry.. but i thought that he'll be ok soon..

On Sunday.. he didn't sms me or call me.. i started to worry.. i tried to sms him and all him.. but he reply NONE of my msg!! He REFUSED to pick up my call!!

I sms Eason on that day.. Eason finally told me the truth.. Jacky was actually his cousin!! They stay together!!! WTH!! And Eason said, my bf, Jacky was the one who gave my number to him!! Oh my Goodness!! Why would Jacky wanna give my number to another guy??!! i'm his gf!! Is he pushing me away to another guy??!! He wanna DUMP me??!!

What is going on??!!

On Monday night.. i cried.. i'm just being too EMOTIONAL!! I'm a CRY-BABY, and that is the FACT!!! I cried the whole night.. i have not cried like this before in my life.. I was going to have my Physics exam the next day, but i didn't study..

He kept me FALLING APART!!! I guess i've failed my Physics paper..

My friend wanted to SLAP me!! She said i'm too soft-hearted.. it's true but that is not the reason i cried for HIM!! Last time, i wasn't serious bout him.. There's once, he said he was going to COMMIT SUICIDE when i said broke up with him.. i didn't believe that..

I guess he's taking REVENGE on me.. I have fell in LOVE for him...

It's true that people will only know how to APPRECIATE sb/sth when we lose them..

I MISS HIM AND THAT IS TRUE!!

Today is the SIXTH day i broke up with him..

Still i didn't get any news from him...

I ponder.. maybe he has another gf.. so that was an excuse to get rid of me.. (??)

I admit that i treat him like a dog when we were still together..
But i swear i'm not gonna do that again!! I'm seriously SERIOUS here!!
I just wish he would come back.. or at least just send me a single message..
I wouldn't ask for MORE..
ALL i need is him..
I've fell for him deeper and deeper dy-by-day, until i can't pull myself back again!!

HELP ME!!

UNTITLED

it's been a long time i've not go online..

i miss my blog..

my blog seems like everything to me now..

why can't blog be human being..??

i wanna hug my blog..

i'm so down..

knowing that everybody is leaving me one-by-one..

Firstly.. is PB..

Secondly.. is Derek..

Thirdly.. Some random guy that we've not met before.. (??)

There's whole lot more..

Those guys that i flirt with... they are UNCOUNTABLE..

Max..

Irvin..

Eason..

Today is 26 September..

I called PB..

Very obvious that we are so awkward to talk to each other..

He was going for a trip to KL.. with.. his gf..

I didn't know about it at first..

But when i heardd a sound of a girl talking to him..

I started to suspect..
I asked him.. "is she your friend?"

He was like.. "erm.. ya.."

What does that mean??

He sounded so weird..

I was thinking that maybe he's lying..

So i asked him again..

FINALLY.. he admitted..

But why??

it's just a small matter..

Why can't he just tell me the truth..

Am i his REAL friend or.. maybe i'm just some RANDOM web friend for him..?? i mean.. not that i wanna bother his love life.. i'm happy that he found his true love.. and i'm so envious..

i admit that i was EXTREMELY shocked at that moment.. it wasn't what i expected..

maybe i'm just too obsessed to.. HIM?? i don't know.. AND I DON'T WANNA KNOW!!!!

All the guys that i've met.. they seems like treating me the same way like i treat those other guys last time..

I really don't know what to say anymore..

ONCE UPON A DREAM..

Once upon a dream..
I was lost in LOVE embrace..
There i found a perfect place.

Once there was a time,
Like no other time before,
Hope was still an open door..

I was unafriad,
The dream was so exciting..
But now i see it fade
And i am here alone..

Once upon a dream,
You were heaven-sent to me..
But it wasn't meant to be..
Now you're just a dream..
Could we begin again?
It was only ONCE UPON A DREAM...

THE LOOK OF LOVE..

Have you ever seen the look of LOVE?
The look of LOVE is in your eyes..
A look of your smile can't disguise
The look of LOVE is saying so much more than just words could ever say
And what my heart heard
Well, it takes my breath away..

You've got the look of LOVE
It's on your face
A look that time can't erase..
Don't ever go..
Because.. I **** you so..

Try to Remember..

Try to remember when life was slow
And so mellow...
Try to remember when I'm young
And a callow fellow..
Try to remember and if you remember
Then follow..

Try to remember deep in December
It's so nice to remember
Although you know the snow won't follow here
Without hurt, the HEART will hollow
Deep in December
Our hearts should remember..

I've look at LOVE both sides now
From give and take
And still somehow
It's love ILLUSIONS i recall
I really don't know LOVE at all..

Tears and feras and feeling proud
To say "I Love You" right out loud


Everything that we dream for will not always be beautiful.
Loneliness will teach us the meaning of independent.
Tears you shed shows the meaning of love and care,
But what will remain forever in our lives is those beautiful MEMORIES..

CINTA

Jika ditanya tentang CINTA,
Macam-macamlah jawapannya,
Ada CINTA yang bawa ceria,
Ada CINTA yang sanggup merana.


Sanggup berkorban apa saja,
Hilang kawan hilang keluarga,
Lebih baik CINTA pada Yang Esa.

Hidup ini penuh pancaroba,
Kiri kanan masalah saja,
Janganlah derita kerana CINTA,
Kerana CINTA bahagia.

Kalau benar CINTA itu buta,
Siapakah jadi mangsanya?
Kalau CINTA itu CINTA setia,
Nangis ketawa sama Hahaha..

Kalau kita boleh beli CINTA,
Berapa pula harganya?
Alangkah indah kita dicinta,
Kerana hidup kita lebih bahagia..

My Guardian Angel..

Ryozo Daigo..

Who is he..?? He has been existing in my life long time ago.. Always on my mind..

We have not even known each other all that long..
But in the short time that i've known him, he's always the person that i can turn to when i need help..

He showed me that suicide wasn't the answer after the confiscation of my handphone..

He never take a step ahead of me or fall behind me..

We're side-by-side..

He always go to the ends of the Earth and back for me.

He gives me peace of mind..

He makes almost everything bad seem so unimportant, like i'm in heaven..

With him in my life.. I'm sure that everything's gonna be alright..

He makes every day seem worth living..

He wrote about me in his "personal record" tha i've visited recently..

As Ateli3r says, I'm such an evil WHORE..

Somehow.. it sounds kinda true!!

I'm shutting myself out from reality..

Knowing that i'm gonna meet the teacher for counselling..

Our friendship is falling apart at the seams..

Reading back all the messages that he sent to me last time..

Those romance..

Those passion..

And the LOVE had between us before..

They had all faded..

"It's just a joke.."

Guess i'm naive enough to believe those previous message were true.. And that's the proof..

I closed my eyes tightly in the vain attempt to hold back my tears..

The Story Of Titanic in Reality

The LOVE story of Jack and Rose..

Jack used to like the way Rose laugh..
Jack used to make Rose feel safe and loved..

Jack used to love her voice..

Jack used to LOVE her so much..

Jack used to dream of Rose..

Jack used to protect Rose and treat her like a kid..

Jack used to believe in FAIRY TALES..

However, it's not a fairy tale between them anymore..

Fairy tale doesn't comes true..

Rose used to laugh in every jokes that Jack made..

Rose used to make Jack understand the TRUE meaning of LOVE..

But..

Rose ruined it..

Rose used to make Jack smile..

Used to make him feel brand new everyday..

BUT..

Rose is not PERFECT as you've imagine, Jack..

She is not the BEST for Jack anymore..

Rose is no longer DEAREST to Jack..

Rose is not Jack's cup of tea..

Jack doesn't like milo and coffee that Rose made for him..

Rose is not precious to Jack anymore..

Rose doesn't LOVE herself..

I wonder whether Jack still keep the crystal ball Rose bought for him..

Jack..

Natural Phenotype of Girls

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。 　

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会来在乎你关心你，怕你做错事情。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她，在别人面前她都是淑女。

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，你根本就没有本事让她哭泣，让她即使生气也不会超过2天。

而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这一切都因为你还不够在意她, 不够懂她。

于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她。 　

于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她。

于是，你们总是莫名其妙的彼此错过，也许擦身而过，本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福。

要知道，凄美依然是美的一种，并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑，那是更加的美。

因为她喜欢你，所以她偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。

因为她喜欢你，所以她才会生你的气；而又因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气很久。

你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。

你可知道，每个女孩子都是不设防的，你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下伤害。

她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。

她会很矜持，她会很骄傲，她会很冷淡，她总是嘴里说着你走开，心里却一直叫你留下。

请你张开你的耳朵，也请你打开你的心，去听她心里真正的呼唤，而不是她嘴里的口是心非。

她会看着你转身，然后她跟着你转身，当侧身而过的时候，你看不见她的泪，滂沱在脸上心里。

如果你喜欢她，请你多陪她...

如果你喜欢她，请你多宠她...

如果你喜欢她，请你多让她...

如果你喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，那是呐喊——请拥抱她。 　

在爱情里，总是彼此伤害，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。

可是，爱情里没有孰对孰错...

爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。

你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够。

不要试图让彼此的伤害，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。 　

你们彼此相爱，你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐，不是伤害。 　

不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。 　

要知道，你离去的时候，你的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光。 　

越是安静战火就越传，这是冷战也是彼此的伤害——无论是怎么的复合，那些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。 　

请跟她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。 　

她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。 　

请记住，相爱的人不要轻易宣战，因为冷战带来的伤害，超出你的预计。 　

也请记住，只要你喜欢她，没有什么是你接受不了的，只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。

那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。 　

也请记住，她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。 　

她只是想你宠她……

Another JUNK!!

FIRST OF ALL!! i gotta remind those who are reading my blog now..

THAT GUY (LEFT) IS WANTED!!!!

Whoever knows HIM.. just STAY AWAY from him.. Never ever get near him.. Coz he's hunting for his prey... I hope you won't be the UNLUCKY one.. I'm the SECOND victim now..

Currently, i'm still TRAPPED in this LOVELESS relationship..

What the F***!! is that his ex gf??? BOO...

i'M GONNA THROW 100000000 ROTTEN EGGS RIGHT ON YOUR FACE!! BITCH!!!

You're NOT my cup of tea!!!

JUNK !!

I would like to introduce..

1. This is Guo Xin Wei, 18. Frm Banting.. At first when i saw his picture, i THOUGHT he is HANDSOME, man! I like that shirt on him. hehe! But..

BUUUUUTTT!!! When he sent more and more of his pictures.. (look at the two pictures below) I'm getting.. getting annoyed!!

Don't try to act CUTE!! oh PLEASE...

GOD!! i'm gonna VOMIT!!!

ok.. honestly, i HATE mickey mouse!! i HATE those in Disney Land!! My parents are planning to go for a vacation to Hong Kong. And they told me that we are going to Disney Land D:

WHAT?!!! No Way!!! I just wanna go SHOPPING!!

To be continued..

I'm gonna name myself..

I'm in LOVE!!!!

In love with AVRIL LAVIGNE!!!

YES!!!!

I'm gonna name myself...

...............


AVORINE!!!!! (isn't it sounds like avril lavigne??)

ok.. i know it's... LAME!!!

But i'm serious here!!!

So what do you think??

I just wanna have a unique name for myself.. (even though i know it's NOT unique..)

For example, my mum! she named herself JENSO. Hey.. NICE!!! That's why she's so popular among her colleague..